Tuesday, March 27, 2012


Oh hi.
I feel oppressed in my room. I should go out moreeeeeee

Listening to the killers live is awesome

Growing up must suck.

I've felt pretty shitty lately, like this past year. Like, I've been happy but always I just have this empty feeling deep down. I don't know why. I feel like all of a sudden I'm questioning everything. Cuz I have to go to college and make all these decisions for myself. Also I'm a senior and I feel like I have to bear the weight of leading the way for other people. I can't just follow the older kids. Maybe it's because I don't know what I have to look forward to that I feel empty.

I'll do new things with the intention of "maybe this will snap me out of it" like I'll see friends more or I'll smoke or I'll go a week high on coffee. Like I'm searching for a groove or a rhythm that will help carry me through this but I always go back down to feeling meh.

Maybe I'll be religious when I'm older.

Saw the hunger games. Josh Hutcherson is sooooo cute umph

I got into Northwestern yay


  1. I really hope that once you get to college, you'll be able to be out more - literally and figuratively. It's not easy being closeted to most if not all people.

    Avoid the smoking (I know you're being facetious). And congrats on getting into Northwestern! Was this a top choice? Any other to choose from yet?

    Look forward to the future with anticipation. You don't have to carry anyone's torch. Things have a way of working themselves out.

    Peace <3

  2. Thanks!! It's basically down to northwestern and michigan. I love what you said- things have a way of working out. That's so nice and reassuring