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so i got a tumblr, i just started, like an hour ago and i barely have any posts but hopefully il start getting into it
http://ya0ming.tumblr.com/
yaoming cuz im tall and half chinese

okay a real post

So we're reading The Things They Carried in English class and its a great great book. Its great because the language runs smoothly and its descriptive in all the right ways; everything it talks about is interesting. I can read it about a minute a page, which for me is good because I'm usually an impossibly slow reader.
All I really want to talk about now is swim season because it's so much fun. The guys are great and are all accepting of my sexuality. Even though it's not often explicitly mentioned around me I know they are okay with it. Maybe there's the initial shock of finding out, then it goes away.
Everything moves faster now, and there's always practice or meets to look forward to. Now that its break there's so much that I can/should do with my free time that I haven't gotten to. I feel like break hasn't hit me yet.

dear blog friends

never write or talk for the sake of writing/talking. you give people a false sense of meaning in your words and people won't listen to you anymore

L-O-V-E's just another word I never learned to pronounce

3OH!3 !!!!!!!!!!! I used to think they sucked but the truth was i never actually listened to their music lol. I've always tried to be all altenative-y and listen to songs that I thought other people didn't listen to. I listened to mainstream songs sometimes before but now Im starting to listen to them a lot and I'm getting into rap too. I love lil wayne Never thought I'd say that.
It's about 3 weeks into the swim season and we've had 4 meets. I won the 50 free yesterday and it was a huge rush cuz everyone was cheering and I touched a guy out who was supposed to beat me by half a second.
I also got my first local newspaper interview yesterday.. after I won the 50. The guy called me by the wrong name and thought i won the 200 IM. it was awkward.
But swim season is really fun and it's a lot different now that I'm an upperclassman and I practice with guys that are younger than me. Theres this whole new sense of responsibility and pressure to know what you're doing. I'm getting more respect and recognition its nice. It's still just as fun as years before, if not more.

Thanksgiving Break

I think I completely forgot about the point of Thanksgiving. I didn't think about what I was thankful for. I mean, I was thankful for the food that we had.. it was awesome, but other than that I didn't get around to making a list of the things I really appreciate in my life but forget about sometimes
I am thankful for my family and the love that surrounds me
I am thankful for the swim team and the support they have given me
I am thankful for my all my friends and their willingness to love me and stick with me
I am thankful for the kindness that I have felt from the people around me even though I often look past it
I am thankful for great food
I am thankful that I live in a great home, go to a great school, and live in an accepting time period
I am thankful for my health
I am thankful for a laptop
I am thankful for my passion for the people I love and my passion for music
I am thankful for my amazing swim coach
I am thankful for a nice bed
I am thankful for thanksgiving break
I am thankful that I have so many possibilities for my life open to me

I wrote a story. I think its done. I might add more, idk. This is not really what I think about the internet. It vaguely references my life

Dan looked out the rain beaten window, watching streaks roll down viciously. Two cars were parked out in his driveway. One was his mom's and the other was a man who Dan didn't know. Why the man was here, he wasn't quite sure.
It was just a Friday afternoon, an afternoon that lets people like Dan sink mindlessly into his bed, gazing and immersing himself inside of his laptop, engrossed in youtube and facebook, frequently switching between two vast and exciting worlds. The rain refused to stop, and Dan had no choice but to sit and allow himself to pretend that the real world was actually the pixeled screen of his laptop, the glowing radiance that lit up his gray and gloomy room. A picture of his friend's boating trip. The temporary thrill of a click. A video from that hot youtuber. The exhilaration of a moment- not knowing what's next- the browser loading the page section by section, from the top, slowly making its way down, to the bottom- making a mind grow impatient and a heart restless- the thrill- when in reality, behind the little thumbnail on the homepage was nothing more than a lure to the claws of desperation. Click after click, tap after tap, as fake as it was, the internet was the world where he wanted to stay, and where he wanted to fill himself with the hopeful yet fearful anticipation of the loading bar, which was more entertaining and much less fearful than the cruelty of real situations around him. The man outside was not in the least a friend of Dan, or welcome guest of his household. The man outside was one of the real fears in Dan's life, and there was nothing that he could do make him go away. There, Dan reclined in his room on a Friday afternoon, gazing silently yet intently at a livelier world while everything around him dwindled with each new click. Click. The posters of his favorite bands- he meant to buy more but he wasn't sure where to buy them, he had gotten the posters all from his friends- everything that surrounded Dan- the messy desk and stacked AP and ACT books- the pictures of his camping trip in Wisconsin- the trophies- all faded beyond his gaze, and didn't seem to matter as Dan lost himself to the idleness of his Friday afternoon.

library

im at the library!!
I didn't dress up yesterday at school, i was planning to then i decided not to. I've been a vampire for the past like, 2 years only because im kinda pale and it's an excuse to put my hair in a mohawk.
That's a funny word, mohawk
Webassigns are annoying but they're really easy points.
This last week was the last week of the quarter and I spent the whole week at home by myself "doing work" (which means about 40 percent doing work and 60 percent being distracted). Now its saturday and I feel like I should go somewhere to watch a movie.
There was a dance at hersey high school organized by their gay straight alliance, and kids from schools all over the area went. I went last year. That's where I got myself into the whole network of gay people. Once you have enough gay friends on facebook you can tell who else is gay if they have enough of the same mutual gay friends. Anyway I didn't go this year because I had no permission form but I kinda wish I had gone.